Friday, May 22, 2009


I'm soo fucking confused. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know what to believe or how to feel. I'm so fucking sick of all this shit. Being in love is supposed to make you happy. Not sad. I've been home all day sick in bed, thinking about shit, trying to get my thoughts straight, but still I came up with nothing. I just want to go to sleep and not have to think or feel shit. I don't want to spend the rest of my life fighting. I want to be fucking happy. I want peace. This shit is just not worth it anymore. He doesn't even put forth the same effort, or see mines, or even admits his wrongs. & I'm just not happy with him anymore. FUCKKKK I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! I just keep praying that I can fall asleep already, I don't want to feel this pain or confusion anymore. I just want it all to go away. Please GOD, make it go away.. =(


  1. Awwww, I know the feeling.
    I remember seeing this on a show once,
    "Just because you want something, doesn't mean you need it."

    It's horrible that we let others effect us to that extent, while they are probably not even concerned. I hope you cheer up! :]
    I don't know the details, but maybe it's time to just let it go. Relationships aren't perfect, but love ISN'T suppose to hurt.

  2. ohh nooo... you sound so upset and unhappy girl. I feel you . Ive been in a 6 yrs relatioship with my bf and there has been so many ups and downs. SO many drama, tears as well as happiness. But were more calm now and steady.

    One thing you have to think is yourself. Do not put up with something that keeps on happening. Like what you said, you dont want the rest of your life fighting ". Life is too short to be miserable. Only you know what is best for you :)

    btw thanks for stopping by my blog. Im full filipino. Oh and where is the follow button. I need to foolw your blog :)