random shit

so derick and i are going through rocky times but were getting through. our anniversary and valentines day is this saturday. we shouldve made reservations earlier cuz everything is booked! we are planning on spending a romantic day at americana. movie, dinner, chill. its such a pretty date spot. we really need this time together also. our fighting is like nothing before. when things get hard and annoying i try to remember one of my favorite verses from the Bible about love:

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

were just so different. our perspectives on things are completely opposite. he likes to talk for hours about an issue so we can fix it, i like to forget it and move on quickly so i dont have to deal with the stress and just do better nxt time. the love is there, we just have so many misunderstandings. i really do love him though. id rather fight with him everyday for the rest of our lives and be miserable, then be happy with somebody else =/ he tells me im verbally abusive and i guess i can be. ill try harder to work on that. but once i have something to say and once im pissed, its hard to hold me back. im lucky hes such a patient guy. i dont think anyone else could deal with my crazy bitch ass. lol. as much as it hurts sometimes, we never give up. were still fighting to be together even though we LITERALLY fight every single day. its hard though cuz when were not fighting, were just so fucking happy. were goofy together, we have alot of passion and we feen for each other all the time. lol. we care for each other so much. i cant even cross the street or have a headache without him begging me to go to be careful or go to the doctors. lol i dont know were freakin crazy. i love him whatever. hahah

anyways, clinicals are finally over for this week and i have the long weekend to look forward too. well, im gonna be studying the whole time but its better than being in school and then waiting in my moms car. hahahahahahahahahaha. they were shooting a movie near my clinic site today called C - zone or something. i went up to the security guard to ask who was starring in it and of course he starts hitting on me. hes all like " oh your a nurse? im sick take care of me. you gotta number girl?" and im like nigga i gotta bf and walked away then i hear him yelling for me to bend over n shit. wtf? i hate guys with no class. hahahahaha. fucker.


also, i hate girls. all they do is talk shit about everyone just cuz theyre so insecure about themselves. soo fucking annoying. get a life whores.