It hurts so much cause I know that we could be so great together. We could be so happy together, but things just don't seem to work out. I'm so tired of fighting. I'm tired of being unappreciated. I'm tired of being controlled. I'm tired of him fucking clicking on me all the time. I'm tired of BLOGGING all the time having to vent about our stupid issues. I'm tired of not being trusted when I've always been faithful. I should have trust issues with HIM, but I'm way more chill and don't trip out over every little thing. I give him his freedom. I give him everything. & we still can't make this work. It's so sad cause when we are not fighting, were so unbelievably happy.
I'm so confused. I just don't know what to do with this relationship anymore. One minute were so happy and in a matter of seconds were so miserable.Like how do you solve that? How can we work things out & just put our pride aside? It's getting harder and harder to do that cause the hurt & bitterness keeps building up inside us both. We just don't understand each other.
The things that I ask for are so simple. Give me my freedom. I don't want to be controlled my whole life just like how my parents have always controlled my every move just cause HE is insecure over NOTHING. I just want the good things that I do to be noticed. Even just a thank you now and then. But all he ever focuses on are my flaws and that im a "BITCH". I'm only this way cause you make me this way. He gets on my case over everything, gets mad at me for a phone call that I DIDN'T even make, and he wonders why I start acting like a bitch.
I just feel so lost.& he still just doesn't understand. I need to do this for me. I strive everyday to be happy in spite of things. & This relationship just doesn't make me happy anymore =(