You make the perfect company <3

What's weird is that I always knew we would end up together. Even when we were just friends in high school, even when he was dating Kat and Tammy and Arienne and whoever else, I always just had this feeling we would be together in the end. It's so strange cuz at the time I never really put much thought into it. It was always just a feeling. Everything about our relationship and memories and past is still so fresh to me. I remember EVERYTHING, literally.

The first time we held hands (walking through the B building to 2nd period). The first time I kissed him on the cheek (after spanish class walking to 3rd period). Our first kiss (upstairs in the C building at Kennedy lol). The first time he said "I love you" (the azn tables after school). The first time we ditched school together (Aaron dropped us off to Mickey ds and Allan picked us up, went to Chinatown). The first time he went to my house and we werent sneaking around the complex hiding from my parents (The first week of January 06'). The first time he actually officially MET my parents as my boyfriend (June 07' before Prom). I remember getting lunch together in the lunch lines at Kennedy, walking to and from class together, how he would drive all the way from lancaster to the valley just to see me for 45 mins before my momma picked me up from school. The little theatre ;] lol. Getting fucked at Joshs party and how he took care of me. Butch and I were soo buzzed that night. lol that was in May 05. Ditching to Julius house or his house or Marys house. Chillin at the azn tables between classes, at lunch and after school. How Mary and I snuck his car out to get snacks while he was sleeping and he was sooo mad cuz he doesnt trust my driving lol. How he would see me at lunch time after he moved to lancaster to bring me some food. All his surprise gifts like my juicy bags make up and jewelry.

We have so many memories together. I still cant believe how after all this time, after all the hater bitches who tried to keep us apart, after the drama with my parents and him, after he moved, after EVERYTHING, we were still able to pull through. And till this day, all we ever do is argue and fight and disagree. But the love is so strong that we push past all that. We fight all day just to have that 5 minutes out of our day being happy. He makes me so happy. He really is there for me no matter what. He puts up with me even though I could be such a bitch. He loves me for the goofy carefree girl that I am. He loves me even though Im fat. lol. He will literally bust a mission for me if I asked him too. Even if he was so tired from working, had a bunch of hw and what not, he would still get up and take me all the way to Topanga Mall if I asked him too. He takes care of my mom and my family. He still talks of our future together, getting married, having kids, growing old together. He even gave up his airforce shit at UCLA just so he wouldnt have to be away from me for months at a time. He's just everything I could want in a man. Caring, hot, loving, sweet, sexy. Hes the total package to me. I'll never find another guy who could compare to him, even half way <3








I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I need

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you