Thursday, January 13, 2011

It's Like Moving Mountains

Since this new year has started I've been slacking off with my healthy lifestyle cause I've been so preoccupied with trying to fix things between him and I. Today I finally had it. I cant believe he had the nerve to tell me that I didnt love him. That I was to weak to try with him, when this whole time Ive been standing by his side fighting for us, trying to reach out to him. Trying so hard to save us. I'm done. If he cared about us he would fight for us too. But he gave up, hes not worthy. & he just doesnt deserve me and my love anymore.

Today was another fail with eating healthy and working out. I had such a hard time at work trying to concentrate, trying to figure out what to do with us. I've been so off my A game. I know not exercising and eating crap adds on to my depression so I just gotta stop. I wanted to much to improve even more this year. I tried so hard to save and improve this relationship but he just left me abandoned. Now its time to focus on myself. Tomorrow. No not tomorrow. Right now I will be the great Michelle I've been again. I will stay fit and healthy and not waste all the efforts and progress I've made so far. I'm gonna keep going, with or without him. I need to find myself again, away from him.

Its like whatever I do
Just cant get through to you

I lost my way, he said hed stay
And lately I been sleeping with a ghost
My stock is down and out
I used to be worth my weight in gold

That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us
And that was before the hurricane came in and stopped us
I told you to leave but you lied to me when you said that
Baby, no worries, I promise to get us back

I know sorries, just wouldnt do it
My heart is obliterated, Im trying to travel through
But its like moving mountains
Its like moving mountains

But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
Then the sky turns gray
And the water from the rain washes progress away
Its like moving mountains
Its like moving mountains

Why you just leave me, just leave me be
Just leave me, just leave me be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be

he dont touch me, I dont touch him
We aint really ever say a word
I really wanna give him everything he deserves
But the bad took away all the good

he thinks that Im full of it, arguments
Always pissed, man Im tired
Every kiss that I miss
Boy you know Im trying

You never believe when I say
And I never believe it when you say
I love you, and I shouldnt complain about it
I should take it like a woman and walk up out it

Cause we will never be the same
Ive been standing in gas
And you have been the flame

This must be a slow death that I'm traveling on
It feels so wrong, I'm barely holding on
See no matter what it takes, I've gotta get it together

And these hills that I'm traveling up
he ain't showing me love, I'm down on my luck
Im done.

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