I want...

-a new burberry, chanel or louie handbag
-more time for just EVERYTHING
-more makeup
-a bigger vanity set
-to go shopping
-to lose this heffa weight and keep it off
-a bigger ass
-some chicken nuggets and honey mustard from mickey ds
-to go clubbing
-to party with my sluts
-to pass term 4 and graduate in march
-more clothes and pricey cute jewelry
-more cute shoes
-my backache to go away
-more patience
-to feel constant peace and happiness
-to watch that new scary movie "the uninvited"
-the new helly kitty kouture collection from mac cosmetics
-more money
-to chill with my cousin ate grace
-see sol
-to grub at pine tree korean bbq
-a macbook ( just cuz theyre cute, i still love my touchscreen hp though )
-a yorkie teacup puppy. omg i want one so bad!
-more occasions and time to get dolled up and fabulous
-to watch the new season of keeping up with the kardashians
-to sleep in all day long without worrying about things i have to get done
-the mac eyeshadows sketch, shale, and texture which are next on my list along with the #187 mac brush
-to get my eyebrows threaded
-to get my nails done
-to stop being so lazy
-a copy of "the secret"

Yah i know. i want alot of things.

shogun sushi

Today me and the fam grubbed at shogun sushi. omg we ordered this one lobster roll or something and it is my new favorite! i think i like it even more than the shrimp tempura. haha its not even funny, im so bloated right now. im getting my period so i cant even concentrate on my diets and working out. Whats weird is that, even though i know im gettin chubby, i still feel content with myself. i still feel totally attractive. haha all my constant positive energy is awesome. even when im fat i still feel gorgeous. and i still get hit on as if im not even chubby so that helps my confidence too. haahaha im so conceited. whatever. its ok to love yourself. lol. but seriously, as soon as im off my period, im back to working out and eating better. i dnt even remember how many times ive stopped and started again. haha.

Im bummed out i missed margies kickback and that i couldnt chill with sol today. gayy. i need girl time bad. but on the other hand, michelle is coming home from hawaii next week! you know we gonna party it up! haha i hope i didnt miss out too much. i miss my sluts yo! margie well drink up nxt week for sure. lol.

friday i have 100 question test to take. i got alot of studying to do. ughh!

Theres Nothing So Bad

Theres nothing so bad
that it could not be worse;
theres little that time may not mend,
And troubles, no matter how thickly they come,
most surely will come to an end.

You've stumbled well,
so have we all in our time.
Dont dwell overmuch on regret,
for your sorry, GOD knows, well, leave it all at that
Let past things be past, and forget

Dont despond, dont give up,
but just be yourself, the self thats the highest and best
Just live everyday in a sensible way.
And then leave to GOD all the rest.

School and Ish

For the first time in forever, I am actually ahead in my studies. Its not as hard studying neuro disorders as i thought it would be. I am actually enjoying learning all dis shit for once. My test is not until nxt Friday which gives me even more time. I need to make up for that fail I got last week. I am so close to graduating and I cant mess up now. Just a month and a half more. Wooh I am so excited! Ill finally have free time for myself and to just chill and do whatever. Lounge around the house, workout, go out, watch tv, clean up my room, chill with my homegirls, maybe get a temporary job while im waiting to take the board, party, clubbing, shopping, and so much more. I feel like school has taken up so much of my time. Its ok though. Not only is it worth it in the end and not only am I gonna be rolling in cash, but I actually got through nursing school. I know Im smart just lazy. haha it feels great being so close to accomplishing your goals and finally accomplishing something Ive worked so hard for during the past year. I can finally shop for all the designer bags Ive been wanting. Chanel, Louise Vuitton, Chloe, Dolce and Gabbana, etc. All the designer clothes and shoes I want. All the makeup I want. haha I cant wait. I am still deciding wether or not i should continue to be an RN or try to be something else. I never wanted to be a nurse, this was just my backup. I guess Ill get more of a feel when I actually start working, and ill decide then.

And also, I cant believe the shit going on. I hope in the end she makes the right decision. Cuz if she doesnt, I swear I wont stop till I bring that fucking hobbit down and put his ugly ass in jail. And the rest of the bitches who were involved in this shit. Deleting me wont do shit you dumb bitch. Ughh. I am just worried for my mom. Of all people, she does NOT deserve this. Im happy I have my cousin to help me get through this hard time. Ill continue to pray for her.

Anyways, I have clinicals tomorrow. Night!

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what a horrible way to start my day. i got a fail on my stupid test. i shouldve studied more. and what a horrible way to end my day. our constant disagreements and fighting are really starting to make me question if we belong together or not =/

blogging

I finaly finished reading Breaking Dawn the 4th and last book of the Twilight series. Omg it was soo awesome! The ending could not have been more perfect. I hate it when good series come to an end. I was sad when I finished all the Harry Potter books too. lol. Hopefully, Stephanie Meyers comes out with another!

So I havent done anything all day except go on youtube watching more makeup and hair tutorials. Im so inspired! I can finally add to my hair and makeup journal thing I created a while back with a bunch of different ideas Ive had so I wont forget all my awesome looks. haha. Its been a while since I have put any new looks in. Im watching this one chick named Hanh or something and she is like a hair queen! She can do any hairstyle. I can finally put my million different hair curlers to good use. lol. I also watch this other chick on youtube who is like my new favorite makeup artist. She can take any color and mix it all together and make it still look natural and hot. She can put orange reds and golds together and still make it look soo pretty. Not tacky looking or over done at all. I have like every color eyeshadow in the world, but I never really used all my funky colors too much. But now I know how to do it and still look good. Soo much fun! I wanna go shopping for makeup so bad. I really want that Nars eyeshadow pallet and some Vincent Longo and Shu Uemura foundation. I also want to try Laura Mercier cosmetics. I heard they had really good but pricey stuff. I cant wait for graduation. I will ask my mom for makeup for my graduation gift. haha

Anyways, I miss my whore Margie. We need to get dolled up and drink again soon slut! I hope plans for Big Bears with Julius and Allan and all the homies go through. Omg it would be so much fun. Snow, Liqs, Cabin, the homies... woohhh! lol.

Tomorrow I have clincials again. Good thing my sight is mad chill. I usually have alot of down time to chill and study. My schedule is so wack though. Whatever, I only have to deal with this for another two months, and then Im free! Omg I gota celebrate big once I get out. Me and my mom were talking about vacationing in the philippines or hawaii once i graduate. That would be so awesome. Just me my mom and sister. Spa time and shopping time and relaxing time. haha okie gotta go. Clinicals tomorrow. bye!

16 random things

1. I am in looovvvvee with makeup.

I have a million different eyeshadows, lipstick, blushes and makeup brushes. Its a fetish. I go crazy if I dont buy makeup here and then =/ Leelan thinks they are a total waste of money cuz i already have everything. haha girls can never have to much makeup ;]

2. I get bored easily.

Ill have a new hobby or obsession for a week or so and then I am totally over it. Last week I was dying for boots and heels. This week, once again, I want to buy a bunch of Nars cosmetics products and more makeup brushes. Hehe. I love it.

3. I collect anything that has to do with fashion or beauty.

For instance, makeup, handbags, jewelry, shoes, so on...

4. i hate nursing

but i do it for the moolaaaa

5. My favorite junk foods are chips and chocolate.

especially during that time of the month. nothing can keep me away. lol

6. I totally adoorree Kim Kardashian.

Shes gorgeous, hot, and soo stylish. Shes nice too! She is my idea of the most gorgeous perfect woman in the world. haha. I like that whole curvacous exotic look. I also get alot of fashion, hair, and makeup tips from her awesome style ;]

7. I have a problem keeping my mouth free of curse words.


I have a major cussing problem. Everything that comes out of my mouth is a curse word. lol i need to work on that.

8. I love dressing up.

Even when i just go to the market, I cant help but to try to look cute. Its just too much fun getting dolled up =]

9. I am dying to try Shu Uemura makeup.

But that is some pricey shiiit. I will as soon as I start working though. Their cream foundation is the bomb!

10. Mickey D's will always be my favorite burger joint.

I never get sick of a big n tasty, fries and a dr pepper. No wonder Im such a heffa!

11. I always check my myspace page and facebook.

It annoys the heck out of derick.. just a habit since I get so bored in class and I sit there on my blackberry.

12. I love to dance and sing

My dancing and singing is rusty cuz its been a while, but I have all the potential in the world.

13. I sleep in the back of my moms van.

Cuz since I totaled my car last year, my mom doesnt trust me to drive myself to school. So I get off at 12, my mom picks me up, and i sleep in her car while I wait for her to get out at 3:15. what a pain!

14. I read the twilight series before anyone even knew about that shit.

So I was not at all impressed with the movie because the book was just soooo much better.

15. I have this tendency to flip my hair all the time

All these hoes thought its cause i was conceited, but its just a fucking habit. I used to get mad hated on for flipping my fucking hair in middle school. WTF?? Hater ass bitches.

16. I would rather stay in and watch movies in my jammies than go out most of the time.

Since school is so tiring, all I ever want to do is just relax. I enjoy having time to myself to jsut chill. Read or watch my favorite shows or whatever else.

Blahhh

Ugghh Im so irritated. Fighting with derick is such a pain in the ass. Its the same routine over and over. We fight over the same things, try to prove our points, click on each other, and then makeup a couple hours later =/ Man if we didnt love each other, we wouldve been done a long time ago. Boys -__-. lol

I am soo dreading going back to school on Monday. I really have to step it up this time cuz I am supposed to be graduating in early March and I will not let anything get in the way. Im so close! Free of all my retarded ride issues! Free of my stupid cram sessions! Ill be free!! woooh Im so excited. I know my mom will be crying as i walk the stage and take my diploma. Haha. As soon as Im working as an LVN, I will be shopping like theres no tomorrow. People I must spoil once I finally can:

-Leelan
-Momma
-Ate Grace
-Mia
-Slutty Sol

Lately, Ive been all into doing my makeup and hair again. Ive been lazy for such a long time that I didnt really care. But i totally forgot how much fun it is to do something fun and different with your hair and makeup. Its so much fun being a girl. Well, this part of it anyways. lol. It sucks doing nursing cuz you cant do much of anything. Your not allowed to have too much makeup on, your hair has to be up at all times, no nail polish (except for clear or something really light), and you have to wear those ugly scrubs all the time. How annoying. Whatver. Heres a list of stuff that I want/need to buy =]


-Aussie hairspray and mousse,

-Mac Hello Kitty Kouture



-Nars eyeshadow pallet



-York DB Felt Coat from F21



-Sabina Skinny studded bag from Urban Outfitters



-Ceramic Hair straightener

-leopard print pumps

-& more makeup!

Lesson Learned

Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned
So I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned
So I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Sometimes
Some lies
Can take a minute
To fully realize
Your eyes
Thirty seconds to apologize
You give it one more chance
Just like the time before
Until that night in bed
You wake up in a sweat
You're racing to the door
Can't take it anymore

I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned
So I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned
So I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Life perfect
Ain't perfect
If you don't know what the struggle's for
Falling down ain't falling down
If you don't cry when you hit the floor
It's called the past cause I'm getting past
And I ain't nothing like I was before
You ought to see me now

Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned
So I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned
So I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned
So I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned
So I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Hello Kitty Kouture!

Omg! Mac cosmetics is coming out with a new Hello Kitty Couture Line! Check it out!




From WWD:
MAC Cosmetics has teamed up with Sanrio Global Consumer Products to create a Hello Kitty color cosmetics collection.
The line will arrive on MAC’s Web site Feb. 10, in North American stores on Feb. 12 and into overseas stores in March.
“MAC has been mining pop culture since the brand was founded,” said John Demsey, group president of the Estée Lauder Cos. Inc. “This is a sexy and innocent fashion line, and a true MAC moment. In these times, everyone can use a little fun — and a little Kitty.”
“The partnership was a no-brainer,” said James Gager, senior vice president and creative director of MAC Worldwide. “We cater to people who love to play with makeup.”
While in many licensing partnerships, the licensor shops his or her property around, MAC went after Sanrio, Hello Kitty’s owner, to do the deal. “They had never done makeup before, and I was certain that all those women who already own a bit of Hello Kitty would also want to own branded makeup,” said Gager.

We are thrilled to partner with a brand that shares the vision of offering an innovative, authentic and transforming experience to our loyal fan base,” said Janet Hsu, president of Sanrio. Sanrio’s worldwide retail sales of licensed products for 2007 is estimated at $5 billion.
While the 34-year-old Hello Kitty character is usually assumed to be a cat, she is actually a girl, according to Sanrio. And a girl without a mouth, so she “speaks from the heart,” the company said. “She may not have a mouth, but she’s going to sell a lot of lipstick,” cracked Demsey, noting that a waiting list for the items will go live on Jan. 7 at maccosmetics.com.

“To me, MAC Hello Kitty embodies the ultimate beauty icon,” said Jennifer Balbier, senior vice president of product development for MAC Worldwide. “She’s sweet and sexy, slightly edgy, and appeals to a wide range of customers. We wanted to reflect that through a sweet side, but also something slightly mischievous when it came to the colors. I started out by creating a palette of pinks, since they fit and always trend well in the spring. And this look is so much about the eyes that we did two eye shadow quads.” The Lucky Tom quad has violet blue, brown, gold and pink-coral shades, while the Too Dolly palette has mint, blue-silver, pale pink and magenta shades.
“We incorporated glitter eyeliners because she loves anything that twinkles, and we took the coral and hot pink theme and did pretty, poppy [colored] blush,” added Balbier.
While this collection is intended to have a sophisticated presentation, MAC hopes to appeal to younger fans with two shades of lip conditioners.

The Hello Kitty offerings fall into two collections: the Hello Kitty Colour Collection and the more high-end Hello Kitty Kouture. The bulk of the items are in the former category: six shades of lipstick with names like Fashion Mews and Strayin’, each $14; six Lipglass shades, each $14; and two tinted lip conditioners, $14.50 each; two eye shadow palettes, which each contain four shades and retail for $38; two shades of pigment are $19.50 each, and two Reflects Glitter stockkeeping units — one blue, one pink — are $17.50 each. Four Glitter Eye Liners, each $16.50, two shades of Beauty Powder, each $22; three shades of nail polish, each $11; a black mascara, $12, and false lashes, $12, round out the color offerings. Shades range from pinks and turquoises to lavenders and greens.

Hello Kitty Kouture is intended to be the high end of the collection. Two shades of Dazzleglass, each $28, each feature a reusable silver chain pendant with Hello Kitty outlined in white Swarovski crystals on black with a pink crystal bow. Sheer Mystery Powder, $90 and available in three shades, is packaged in a silver powder compact with Hello Kitty outlined in white Swarovski crystals with a pink crystal bow on a black background.
“We wanted to have affordable luxury and a high-low aspect, so it made sense to do the Hello Kitty Colour Collection and Hello Kitty Kouture,” said Demsey.

The Hello Kitty Colour items, a Petite Makeup Bag, $22, and a medium Makeup Bag, $35, will be in all doors, currently about 581 department and specialty stores in North America including Nordstrom, Bloomingdale’s and Macy’s, as well as MAC’s 138 freestanding stores in North America and at maccosmetics.com. Internationally, the items will be in 1,307 doors in 69 countries, including 296 MAC freestanding stores outside North America. Hello Kitty Kouture will be available at MAC stores and maccosmetics.com only. At the maximum, the collection will be available for eight weeks.

A plush doll, $42; purse mirror, $22, and three-brush collection, $49.50, will be available at MAC stores, Nordstrom doors and maccosmetics.com only. A mirrored key clip, $16; beaded bracelet, $34, will be sold in MAC retail stores and at maccosmetics.com only, and a tote, $45 and soft vanity kit, $55, will be exclusive to maccosmetics.com. These items are intended to animate the counter presentation and create an entire Hello Kitty world at retail, Gager noted.
While none of the executives would discuss sales projections, industry sources estimated that the limited edition MAC Hello Kitty collection could do upwards of $12 million in North American retail sales. That projection is slightly larger than that of the hit Barbie collection.
In-store visuals, shot by Nick Knight, show the polar opposite aspects of the collection. One is an image of a blonde model holding a black vinyl Hello Kitty doll, which will be part of the accessory line. The other visual is what Gager terms “more of a dominatrix creature.” The point, said Gager, is to show that makeup can be transformative. Makeup was done by Val Garland, with hair by Sam McKnight. And Demsey promises the surprises aren’t over yet. “There will be more products to come in the next three months with this partnership,” he said.

Woooohhh I cant wait for this brand to come out! Now i know what i want for my graduation gifts! lol.

09' here I come!

Happy new years everyone! haha im so glad monica told me to make a blogspot instead of blogging on myspace. its so much fun! thanks girl! lol.

So 09' is officially here. Here is my list of goals to accomplish this year.

1. Lose weight (again =/) and keep it off this time!
2. Graduate nursing school in march
3. Take and pass the board
4. Find a job as a hot ass nurse ;]
5. Party it up once i FINALLY deserve my total freedom (according to me and my moms deal if i graduate. lol)
6. Money Makin!
7. Continue to be a happy positive person
8. Make my vision board of what i want in life.
9. Do something really special for Leelan cuz he deserves it.
10. Finally learn how to cook!
11. Rearrange my room
12. Spend more time with slutty sol
13. Clubbing finally!
14. Big bear with Margie, Angie, Julius, Allan, and all the homies.

Thats all i can think of for now. but ill add more later. break is almost over and i gotta get back to my retarded schedule and constant studying. its ok. im almost done. i just gotta get through these last few weeks. wooh 09' here i come bitches!