BFF <3

i had so much fun being with my best friend today. im so happy that we finally were able to work out our differences and shit is even better than before. shes been there for me like no other during these past couple of days derick and i have been having rough times, she called me and texted me a million times, took me out today, she even texted me encouraging quotes and sang a song for me on my voicemail. i love you soo much hunnie and im so happy i have you back in my life. thank you for being the best friend ive always loved once again <3

thank you <3

i am so thankful for the people i have in my life that are helping me get through these difficult times. To God, for my amazing mom, my favorite cousin grace, and my best friend sol. i love you guys <3

ive lost all hope now. i dont think anything can fix this.

earthquakes

so ive been hearing all these crazy rumors about the big upcoming earthquake. derick is getting on my case to be prepared and even wants to get me some things for a survival kit. i know it may sounds like were overreacting, but you never know. histoy says that were due for one, espcially since its been 15 years since the last big earthquake in northridge. what sucks is that if it happens, LA will probably be hit bad because we sit right on top of the titonic plates. its scary thinking about it. ive been researching ways to stay safe and what to do in case it is a destructive earthquake. my first instinct would probably be saving my makeup but its not even worth wearing makeup if your face gets jacked from falling objects trying to save them. lol. on the news there was over 175 little earthquakes in just one day near diego area and they are getting stronger. the last one i heard about was rated a 4.5. oceanographers are hoping that since weve been having so many little earthquakes, maybe that is why the big one has not hit, because the plates have been moving little by little over the years. hopefully, a big earthquake does not need to strike =/ i usually would not take such things like this seriously until something happens, but since ive been in nursing school and since seeing people who have become paralyzed due to car accidents and other careless things. i try to take shit a little more seriously now.

anyways, on a happier note, i really want to go to disneyland or six flags or just some sort of theme park. i usually dont like theme parks cuz theres too much walking and waiting in lines involved but for some reason i feel like going. ill talk to derick about it. omg ive been home all week babysitting and working out. i need to get out of this house! i hope tomorrow me and derick can watch the haunting in conneticut and just chill. i really want to see this movie cuz it actually looks like it would be scary. horror films are the bomb =]

slutty sol

im on the phone with sol right now lol and shes such a slut. i love her. hahahahahaha. were discussing plans for her grandpas bday party this sunday and our movie/dinner date next week. i hope i can make it. we gonna grub and chill haha. im planning on watching the haunting in connecticut with derick on friday and ill watch something with sol next week. yay im excited i get to be with my best friend! sundays are usually our only days to chill cuz i see derick on fri and sat and sol works mon thru friday. so ya. we talk on the phone every night anyways so its cool. ive missed my slutty whore! hahahaha ok anyways, back to sol. night everyone!

wooh!

i just got done working out and i got some studying done.
it feels soo AWESOME when i accomplish things i need to get done.
i feel skinnier and more prepared for the board already =]

what a gorgeous day

today is such a beautiful gorgeous day. the sun is shining. the wind feels so good on my skin. its one of those days where you just appreciate all the little things. im happy cuz im finally really getting into my study and workout mode. i made myself a study schedule, certain subjects to focus on during certain days. i scheduled each day for when i will workout and study so im not just scattered all over the place. for the past couple of days ive been sad and stressed out feeling like im getting so gross and fat and wasting so much time when i already need to be getting ready for the board. why do i make shit so hard on myself? obviously all i have to do is STUDY and WORKOUT so i can solve those problems. im such a lazy whore i really need to fix that about myself. so now i feel alot better getting things done that should be done. im alot more organized. my cousin is coming over later so we can workout and do some taebo. i also wanted to clean up my room and get some laundry done but my sister is home for spring break and her bed is in the middle of my floor in my way. its cool ill take care of it next week or something.

this weekend ive been chillin. friday i spent the day with my boyfriend just relaxing at my house and doing some hw here and there. on saturday he woke me up and told me to get ready cuz dex and butch wanted to grub some korean bbq or something. so after we dropped off my brother to work we had lunch at pinetree, me and dericks fav korean bbq joint. it was bomb of course. i met butch's new gf. shes cute. hahaha. afterwards derick dropped me off home, chilled for like 15 mins cuz he had to get home early this saturday. he had some stuff to do with his dad. met up with sol around 3 thirty. hit up topanga mall and went shopping! i think my mac brush set is finally complete! lol im so happy.
after we had a late dinner at dennys. got back to my pad and finally had our long awaited sleepover! i love my wifey! i dont think shes slept over since 06 or 05.






anyways, just wanted to blog real quick. back to studying.

still awake

man our fighting the past couple of days have been crazy. i feel as if i havent even really talked to him. i dont know. im tired. i want to get away from all this. this is keeping me from doing the things i need to do. we need to chill out for a sec before i murder a bitch for real. ugh watever.
its 2 am and i hate knockin out so late cuz i wakeup so late. i feel like half my day has been wasted. so ill probly be waking up around noon. ill grub and then workout. hop in the shower. clean up the house before the rentz get home. study. visit my little cousins. go home. chill. and study some more. thats basically what my days consist of now. except i can never stay consistent with my workouts and studying. i need to work harder on that. im so bored at home anyways i might as well make good use of my time by preparing for the board and working out. i need to relieve some stress some how. i hate feeling all flabby and i cant even suck in my gut. gross. it feels awesome after a good workout though. id rather go to the gym with my cousin cuz you get more motivated when your surrounded by people trying to acheive the same goal.

friday ill see derick most likely, and hopefully chill with margie and angie that night. i need some girl time. i finaly saw sol on sunday and it felt so good chillin after so long. were planning a sleepover sooon. its been put on hold for far to long. ive missed that slut. anyways ima try to knock out. nite

Grad Pics

i cant believe i finally graduated! omg im still in shock. lol. im so glad i didnt end up ballin afterwards. i wouldve messed up my makeup. as much shit that ive been through during this year, and even though some of my classmates got on my nerves, lol, omg im gonna miss everyone soo much!! its sad, cuz even if we made the effort to chill here and there, it would NEVER be the same. i mean come on. we spent how many hours a day together, just a small 20 student class. it was like a family almost. its a whole new journey ahead of me now. the next challenge will be passing the board. and i already feel myself falling out of that study zone and getting lazy. i havent worked out since last monday =/ whatever, i need to get back on top of things. ive had a good break already. anyways, good luck everyone! ill miss you guys!!
































SOME GRADUATION GOODIES =).

graduation day

IM GRADUATING FROM NURSING SCHOOL TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CONGRATULATIONS TO MEE!!! WOOHH!

Them chickenheads jackin’ my style
They try to copy my swagger
I’m on that next shit now

shitty day

today i finally worked out, i studied for the board for a good couple of hours, i cleaned up and did laundry. i usually feel so good when i do productive things, but i still feel like shit =( im sick but i think theres just other shit bothering me. idk i hate feeling this way.

working out.

I AM OFFICALLY GONNA START WORKING OUT TOMORROW! i dont care if im sick or feel like crap or whatever else. im sick of this heffa weight. it aint cute no more. i am gonna set my alarm so i can wakeup by 10. have breakfast and start working out by atleast 11. and be out of the shower by 12 in time for my stupid antibiotic i need to take for my ear infection. then ill start studying for the board. i hate feeling like my days are wasted not doing anything productive. at first it was such a relieve not doing anything and just lounging around cuz school totoally burned me out. but now i feel like im wasting so much time. whatever, ill stop worrying and whining about it. ill get shit done. im gonna work out tomorrow! i cant wait to drop this heffa weight! plus working out makes you feel so good after you do it and helps relieve stress. i plan to workout atleast 4 times a week. im not really gonna go on a diet, but i will try to eat better and try not to eat right before i knock out. cut down on the rice and soda. hahaahhaa

im a sick whore.

last week, i was supposed to start working out and studying for the board but i got my period. this week i was supposed to start working out and studying for the board again but now im freaking sick and i have a fucking ear infection -_-. wtf? ughh i feel so shitty its not even funny. my cousin gave it to me. i was all happy to start studying and working out today too =/ im soo effing huge! i just hope this shit goes away soon so i can really get on the things i need to do.

PRACTICE, PASSION AND PERSISTANCE MAKES PERFECT!

This weekend i finally got to spend some real time with leelan =] i also got to see my girls and kick it. we were supposed to go to this party but it ended up being 12 bucks a head to get in. fuck that! we decided to meet up at margies pad and chill there until we decide what to do. we talked about drinkin up at her pad, hookah, hit up deon and dontes party, or whatever else we came up with. in the end we just got mexican food and a 40 and grubbed at her pad. lol. chilled and chatted for a while til i had to pick up my brother at work. we talked about hitting up big bear or camping. and we all decided that THIS time well actually go through with it. we all just gotta save up. omg im soo excited! that would be so much fun!




I realized that just cuz im graduating, theres still so many things that i NEED to get done. i cant really just laze around and do whatever.
LIST OF SHIT TO DO AFTER GRADUATION:
-workout everyday consistently
-watch what i eat
-study study study for the board!
-maintain cleanliness of my room
-do chores
-practice more makeup and hair looks
-use ALL of my makeup and jewelry from now on
-chill and party here and there
-DO ATLEAST ONE PRODUCTIVE THING EVERYDAY

i am going to stop wasting my time watching tv and do something productive all the time. itll only benefit me in the end anyways and ill feel so much better about myself =]

i have graduation rehearsal on wednesday at 1. dr nony said it wont even take an hour to do. why do we have to waste time driving all the way over there then? we should all just come a little early on the actual graduation day. all they do is show us where to enter and stand anyways -__-. ughh so annoying.

Cleaned up and Ish

im watching ABDC right now and i hope beat freaks win. i love quest crew also but i think its the girls time to shine. hahaha so tomorrow i have to go to school to take the hesi predictor test. omg sally mae already sent me a bill =/ i havent even graduated yet! ughh! i need to pass the board quick cuz my mom cant afford these extra bills every month. i also have to stop by borders to pick up tabers nursing dictionary and im deciding between the nursing diagnosis book or the medical terminology book. ill get all of them eventually but my mom only gave me 1 bill for now. so most likely ill get the nursing encyclopedia or dictionary and the nursing diagnosis book. ill ask jorge which are best since ill see him tomorrow.

im excited i finally get to see leelan! i feel like we barely spent anytime together last weekend cuz he had so much hw to do so we really couldnt just chill and relax.

im so happy, i finally did something productive today and cleaned up my room. omg it was so dusty and gross. it feels so much nicer and relaxing now =] i organized my desk and all my books, dusted, changed my sheets and pillow cases, vacumed, and folded/hung my clothes. i decided to start a real journal where i could write more personal and deeper shit. plus i just feel like it. ill keep using my blogspot though cuz its too much fun. i need to get a new 09 planner so i can keep more organized. i already have this little blue one but i want one that is bigger and cuter.

nxt week i will officially start working out and focusing on the board. i cant wait to start working. (AND OMG QUEST CREW JUST WON RIGHT NOW -__-, WHAT A BURN.) i will be shopping every weekend and i can help my mom with all the bills. my days will consist of working out, studying, chilling/relaxing, and eating. hahaha ok good night!

Yours Truly

Aroma Cafe & Americana

Today i got to school at 6 thirty am. dr nony talked to us for like 30 mins at 8 then dismissed us. afterwards a bunch of my classmates and i went all over the place looking for a place to get fingerprinted so we could turn in all our paper work for the board. had brunch then went home. as soon as i got home i rushed to get ready cuz i had to go with my cousin. we grabbed lunch at Aroma Cafe in Studio City and omg its soo freakin gorgeous there! i had crispy chicken wraps and a white chocolate cappucino. walked around all the boutiques. everything was all vintage looking, it was soo pretty. there was this really cute bohemian style dress but it was like 60 bucks =(. i hate being broke! not for long though. lol. the shops and restuarants were just so chill and relaxing. i wished i lived near there so i could go whenever i wanted. that would be soo bomb.we also got some gelato ice cream and that shit was pricey! hahahahahahaha



















later on we picked up my cousins boyfriend and chilled at americana for the rest of the night. my brother went shopping of course. grubbed at in n out. i finally tried the red velvet cupcake at crumbs. omg soo bomb! my cousin bought one to take home for my mom. now im home and freakin exhausted.

i was supposed to start working out today with my cousin but we ended up eating like theres no tomorrow AND we fucking got our period today. lol at the exact same time. my cramps were killing me i couldnt even suck in my stomache. hahaha so i couldnt workout anyways. ill start again as soon as im done with my period. hahaha.

friday i have to go to school to take the predictor test. im so glad i have the rest of this week off though. awesome =] i am gonna spend tomorrow cleaning my room and doing laundry. chill and laze around the house.

This weekend

so ive been enjoying my time off from school and studying =]
friday leelan picked me up and went to the mall, he bought me the limited edition #226 brush from mac that ive been wanting =] its like a baby version of the 224 except this brush is good for the crease while teh 224 i love to use for blending. he didnt want to buy me the rest of the stuff i wanted because he wanted to surprise me with them for my graduation present. so i gave him a list. hahahaha my boyfriend is soo sweet! after we grubbed at mickey ds my favorite burger place and then went home. the rest of the evening we spent chillin at my pad while he was doing his hw. i usually study with him but i dont need to anymore. haha well atleast until i start getting ready for the board. so i just did my own thing on my laptop, mainly watch makeup youtube videos. lol. and cuddled and watched some tv. we picked up my bro at 9 from kennedy, then got home watched a movie. he left around 11.

saturday leelan came by 12 thirty pm. did some hw again. chilled. afterwards we went to watch the new street fighter movie with my bro and sister. kristin kreuk is so gorgeous. i love exotic looking girls. after that we grubbed at dennys and stopped by tricias and the twins bday party real quick. i only chilled for like 15 mins cuz i had my sis with me and she was bitching about wanting to go home. although my bro was down to chill and drink up, as always. lol. im happy i finally got to see my sluts even for 15 mins. this sunday i woke up and went to church and grubbed carls jr for lunch. i miss my boyfriend already!!









i cant wait to graduate! its soo exciting! im gonna be a nurse! hahahaha a hot gorgeous nurse. lol. i still have to go to school tomorrow to sign all my nclex papers and wrap up everything. i wonder when well start with the nclex predictor practice test. i hope that dr nony will just create an account for us already so we can do it from home.

im gonna start working out tomorrow and if not tuesday for sure. i saw my uncle working out today and thats when i KNOW i need to start working out lol. my arms are huge and so is my gut! gross! haha its ok. i lose weight fast. my cousin is still trying to compete with me to who loses the most weight and whos the cuter cousin. beeiitch. hahahaha. anyways, i want to catch up with my sluts more. i told margie to throw a kickback at her pad like she always does and this time i wont have my sister with me to be a party pooper. hahaha.

i love you baby!!!!!!!! forever and ever and ever and ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!